The Christian Crew

So... We chilled at home for 4 weeks after we got back from our visit with Jessica... NOT!!! We tried our BEST to ready the house, baby's room, and to really remain calm. I often chatted with Jessica and said could do what she wanted and if she felt different after birth- that would be her choice to parent or not. Literally taking the pressure off. These weeks seemed to whiz by and we still remained rather quiet about everything going on but, We did tell our MOMS and DADS and siblings! ( another story for another day- fun ways to tell other your adopting) Fast Forward to Memorial Day weekend. .. Friday Night, I was texting Jessica, who was doing everything to get PUMA to get out, walking, massages etc... But, she was starting to feel that He wasn't gonna budge for a while so, I said to ENJOY the weekend- b/c Being pregnant is better that post delivery pains, which is totally true. Even after the baby is out of your body, you are not "DONE". There is a ton of healing...

That night ( april 9th) I got home and to my surprise- we had an email from her! I had asked her what had made her want to contact us, in particular. Her response was something like .... there's not ONE thing that drew me to you guys it was a bunch of things and i kept thinking about these 2 blond girls with big red flowers in their hair and i would always go look at your blog and profile. I figured I'd better do something about it if I kept returning to the same family.. . I was SO relieved to know that 1. she was NOT a mis-directed email & 2. she was a living person and is really quite awesome! I could go on and on about our many emails that led to texting and then one day about 2 weeks later, WE made the first CALL to chat! During all that time, Brandon would hound me with excitement about checking our email and he'd read through the texts and sometimes even text her. Come to find out- they have a very similar sense of humor, like brother and sister!!! So, when J...

So. After accepting that ALL THINGS can not be controlled by me or even willed the way i wanted them ( no matter how much i put into sending vibes and thoughts into the universe:), I came to that Ultimate Conclusion: God Knows what We Need, When we need it. I will do all i can to continually press on in the directions we are led. So... We decided to finish that one last Foster Care Certification Class- CPR and First Aid. I had helped another couple in our agency see that FC wasn't so bad and that they would be such wonderful parents ( b/c they already are:) and they'd be able to give so much love to kids in need and eventually adopt one, 2 or more:) So, we conspired to do the CPR class and finish our process up. April 7th came and we did our class and LOVED IT ( you really do remember the rhythm of stayin' alive :)! The next morning on April 8th , I called our case worker contact and later that day we went to the church building to help set up for the CO/WY Area FSA confe...

In February 2011, my prayers started to change. I felt this urge to start being very specific and start praying for OUR BIRTHMOM'S NEEDS! We had NOT been selected and , frankly, nothing was on the horizon. We had completed Foster Care training last October in 2010 and we had told our adoption supervisor's that we were ready to TRANSFER our profile at any given moment we just had to complete CPR training and we'd be ready to go! Kelly, said to me" Just wait a bit longer- have placement then transfer over!" Which i thought was him being crazy b/c we have felt so strongly about foster to adopt that i kind of ignored him, honestly. My prayers would often be doubled each night- praying for HER strength, her supportive friends and family, her ability to find us and know us, her will to stand up to people who may mistreat her and so forth. I felt different things each night and just went with it and i even prayed saying that " no matter in which way she comes...