The Christian Crew

in Utah, we attended Megan's wedding . She is Brielle's birth aunt!( Kara's younger sister) and we snapped a few pictures... Aria and ALL the kids loved playing on the beautiful staircase! Dustin, ( g's birth father) and Kara ( b's birthmother) holding the kiddos ! Brielle was SPECIAL wearing a flower corsage! Gavin LOVED the stairs and it was fight to keep him off them! Kieth, Kara's son, just looked dapper in his little get up! Megan. Emma, ( a birth cousin)Brielle and Aria hugging the bride goodbye! Fun toes and shoes. Her colors were shades of green, silver, black and white! She had an ice cream bar at her reception and it was a lovely day!

- its how we respond to it that makes us different! for example- take myself! On the outside I'm a gung-ho momma on the move, always crafting, baking, working out, playing with kids, planning parties and playdates and otherwise keeping busy. Looking at me you'd never know that I have fears- big fears! Like the ones that could consume my every thought if I let them. But, i don't and I'm finally okay with admitting that it's okay to feel this way- slightly scared of what may be ahead. And out of control for the most part.  You see having had 5 miscarriages, already I'm basically pre-programmed to fail in this arena of my life. So, how do i deal with that?- I expect failure and am pleasantly surprised when a baby succeeds to a full term birth- in/ from my womb. And every opportunity I get to think that the baby may not be living- I pounce on it so, I can prepare myself from FEELING SAD! YEP, I psych myself into this subliminal preparatory mindset- that I ...