The Christian Crew

YEP! i'm spinning is circles getting stuff done! I may not be collecting nectar but, I'm doing all i can to keep my family running smoothly, exercise, homework, piano, gymnastics, and Aria's room mom for her class. I'm involved in the PTA, RS and I got to 24 5 days a week ( most of the time)! I've had my mom here for 2 weeks and we have sewn, made hair bows, finished decorating bedrooms, working out, and doing fun things like swimming at APEX, the zoo, dinners out, play centers, massages, shopping etc. We've had so much fun and i'm sad it's almost over. It's been a great visit and i will see her soon so- not too worried! Enjoy the fall everyone! I will post after a couple weeks post wedding and Disneyland trip! Our broncos bow!

This is NOT MY article but, i will link you to it- SINCE IT's FABULOUS! and Insightful! this pic is of my friend , Miki, and her family! She has such blessings after such heartache! She lost 3 babies then held her niece for 3 weeks before the niece went to her forever family! She later had 3 kids and was told she would die if she had anymore! So, she hoped to adopt for 3+ years then, it happened and Shaylee ( in yellow) joined the family b/c of a selfless birth mother! Now, the Watt Family also waited 3 ish years and had a beautiful baby girl placed with them- only to be reunified with the Father who does'nt stay clean( but wanted the govt' handouts for this sweet girl). Then about a year later a loving couple who chose them placed their big BOY with them on FATHERS day weekend! It was an amazing day to say the least! Adoption blesses many lives, the child, the parents and the birth parents but, we must consider what we say and educate others as we LI...

We all come to different stages in our lives where we see the end of what was our life for the last um-teen years or months and the change that is ahead. Some of us are overjoyed at these next steps or end of that certain chapter but, most of us see these as bittersweet experiences. For me, the most recent one was TODAY! I seriously went through the whole grief cycle in a matter of hours. I bargained with myself saying internally " i can totally still do this if i just give up what i really need to do" " I will just try harder, then everything will be fine"! I Denied that this was going to happen today- i said now way- This is not happening! I felt GUILTY for not being a more equipped mother to my most recent baby. I was ANGRY at Myself  for being a QUITTER! I held my limp , stretch marked abdomen and SOBBED uncontrollably, Hating that i didn't Get to NURSE ALL of my Babies and get that bonding time with each of them.  As I held Slade in my Arms after nur...