The Christian Crew

SO, I have had lots of people say something like this to me " I bet your so happy, your dreams came true and your able to have another baby  " or " You must be thrilled you are having one of your own again!"  How exciting to be able to have another REAL child!" ( let me clear my throat khmmm....) My responses to this are like what i posted on my FB page... "This ( being pregnant) isn't MY dream! I never dreamed I'd stay pregnant after i had Aria and several miscarriages. I have kind of given up on MY DREAMS b/c they are too limited in perspective.   I've Adopted God's Dreams for ME! It works o ut better and is more adventurous this way. I will take my children however they come ,from me or through adoption makes no difference at all to me ( except i get the all the weight gain and a few hours of pushing!)" And I am serious and a rattlesnake bite about this. I am no more or less excited about having a bio child as...

So, most of you who have lived through infertility and miscarriage, understand how those 2 words go together. It's almost like my brain won't let my heart comprehend that I'm actually pregnant. I'm doing fine now, not so sick or anything but, mentally, it's still tough and exhausting. No matter how much I say " whatever happens, happens!" Or other things  like that- I sound negative. After 5 miscarriages over my 10 years of marriage, how can i expect that "THIS ONE WILL MAKE IT" without a shadow of doubt or worry. I really would be lying if I acted as though everything is just fine all the time. I know that as the baby gets closer to term my chances increase to successfully have a baby who lives! Our old caseworker wouldn't even remove couples profiles who got pregnant till they reached the feasible state where a baby will most likely live! In his thoughts that's 28 weeks! I agree with that b/c I've had friends lose at all kinds o...

Tim and Sarah R.  Jeff & Ciara Jared and Amber Ryan and Camille Jeff & Mindy JD & Amanda These are all couples i have met personally! I will post more if a few days! Please spread the word so, families can be united through adoption! It's truly a miracle!

SO, this will take me a few weeks. I'm finally feeling better but, still get nauseated from time to time. Good news though, I heard a great heartbeat yesterday and on Saturday i will be 16 weeks . Still not out of the woods yet but praying each day- this one will make it! So, we had a great trip to Nashville which i will talk about in another post... This is G at the Carton Plantation! And Gavin had his birthday and his Sealing to us as well! So, what that means is he is part of our family FOREVER now, not just on earth but, for eternity! It was so awesome and G made conversation with the pretty chandelier above his head in the sealing room. He was pleasant and chatty and it went smoothly! We had both his birth parents here and their family members and there will also be a full post on this too! My mom was a huge help for the 2 weeks she was here and everyone was so helpful as i hung in there with my nausea. I was very sick and couldn't hold anything down t...